I Don’t Know My Daughters Anymore
By Robert Sauber

Verse 1
There’s a picture I hold onto,
That I look at every night,
Three little girls that called me daddy,
Before I lost my life.

I remember bedtime prayers
And little hands in mine,
Back when hearing “I love you, Daddy”
Made everything feel right.

But somewhere in my brokenness
I let the darkness win,
And the father you deserved
Got buried deep in sin.

Now the years roll by like thunder
And the silence cuts me down,
Because the sweetest part of who I was
Ain’t anywhere around.

Chorus
I don’t know my daughters anymore,
I don’t know the women you became,
I missed the years, the tears, the growing up,
And I carry all the blame.

But Jesus saved this shattered man
When I was too far gone,
He changed the heart inside my chest
The night He led me home.

And I wish that you could see me now,
See the man I’m trying to be,
Because the greatest pain I’ve ever known
Is my daughters not knowing me.

Verse 2
I miss hearing all your laughter,
I miss the chaos and the noise,
I miss the way this world felt whole
Back when I was your dad by choice.

Now I wonder if you hate me,
Or if you’ve tried to let me go,
If you buried every memory
So the hurt won’t hurt no more.

And I know I can’t undo it,
God knows I’d change it all,
Because losing your own children
Is the hardest kind of fall.

Some nights I sit awake for hours
Just talking to the Lord,
Asking Him to somehow heal
What I destroyed before.

And I know I don’t deserve it,
Maybe I never will,
But I pray someday forgiveness
Finds a way into your hearts still.

Final Chorus / Outro
I don’t know my daughters anymore,
But I’ll love you till my final breath,
And every prayer I send to Heaven
Still carries your names with it.

Maybe God can work a miracle
And bring us back somehow,
Because there’s nothing in this whole world
I wouldn’t give right now.

And if the road never leads you home
Before my life is through,
I pray one day in Heaven
I’ll finally get to hold all three of you.